Lifes past and present

Sometimes life throws things my way that I just dont understand. I seriously try my hardest to be positive. Let me tell you this in itself is a big feet. However lately I just feel numb. I feel numb to everything. I really dont know if its a passing thing or if its a rut I'm flopping into. On the plus side I've become re-aquainted with a long time friend. Whom I miss terribly. I thought that being able to communicate would help, but it kind of has hindered my thoughts a bit. I was happy to reconnect, but I am also saddened. Odd.